Garret mindlessly goes about his day feeling like he's just about given up, on trying to be happy, having a great senior year, and his feelings for Porter. To him, there was no point in trying to change who he was.
The halls are empty and this is his free period so Garret wonders around with nothing else to do. As he's walking his phone rings, answering the random number "hello"
"Hey" Porter's voice answers on the line causing him to stop walking, he wonders how Porter could've gotten his number but probably won't ask. "I know it's weird I'm calling but-"
"Garret!" Harper sees her brother and rushes to him, "have you seen Porter?" She asks "I keep calling but he won't answer"
Staring at her without an answer Garret continues to hold the phone to his ear, "say no Garret"
Porter says
"Nope" Garret answers.
Harper sighs "ugh I wish he'd answer his fucking phone! I just saw Elia and he said that Porter broke up with him"
"You- He did?"
"Yes," Harper answers and so does Porter on the phone. "I have to go find him thanks for nothing" she walks away. "Where are you?" Garret asks Porter
"Top of the bleachers on the football field" "Should I tell Harper?"
"Please don't but you're welcome to join me"
Garret wishes he could say no to Porter but sadly his feelings are too strong to ignore, "I'll be right there."
Walking to the back of the school out to the field, Garret looks around until he spots Porter sitting at the very top of the bleachers. Walking up he gets closer and Porter sees him "welcome" he smiles. Stopping a couple of steps away Garret stares at him "do you want to sit down?"
"There?" Garret points to the spot next to him "Yes, Garret come sit."
Garret sits and they both look out to the field, but when Porter isn't looking, Garret takes a quick
glance at him "you don't seem sad" "Why would I be?"
"You lost your boyfriend"
Porter chuckles "I didn't lose him I dumped him, big difference." "Why did you do it?"
"I didn't do it for you if that's what you're thinking"
"I wasn't," yes he was.
"Elia wanted an open relationship, turns out Europeans love to be fluid." "I'm sorry to hear that"
"No you're not and trust me I'm fine, Elia was never serious about what we had." "But he took you to Italy,"
"Yeah and that trip was more for him than for us, I was just an excuse for him to go back."
Garret is having a hard time not feeling bad for Porter, he wants to not care about Porter's life but he can't help it. "So you're fine then?"
"Not really" he shakes his head, "thank you for telling me how you were feeling this morning, but Garret" he turns to the boy sitting next to him, "I don't think I can be who you need me to be. I can't guide you through this and that's what you need"
"No, it isn't, I've been out since sophomore year I think I know how to be gay."
"And yet you've never had a boyfriend," Garret thinks about that, why did he never experiment? How does he know he's re