"It doesn't!" I catch myself barking at him "look I don't care what you guys do, all right? I didn't mean to be a dick it just happened"
"Whatever" he walks out. I don't think Nash and I have ever fought about anything, this is all my fault for being so fucking weird, why do I have a problem with Ricky? He's never done anything to me
Spending my night thinking about everything that happened I feel myself piecing it together. Just thinking about what they do together turns my stomach for some reason, why do I freaking care!
Every time something weird happens between us Nash and I just ignore each other for a few days. I need time away from him because I feel myself getting too close for comfort, maybe the flirting was getting to my head so I need to cut it out with him.
"What do you mean you think you're homophobic?" My mom asks as I walk home and talk to her "It makes me feel weird when Nash has guys over, I think about that way too much ma. I don't want
to be homophobic but it's starting to really bother me"
"Have you felt like that before?"
"No or I don't think so" getting home "any way we'll talk about this later I'm home" "Sure call me soon"
"Bye mom" hanging up I turn my key in the door walking in. "Oh fuck" is my first reaction seeing
something I'd hope I never had to.
Pulling away from their kiss Nash and Ricky stand up turning to me "didn't think you'd be back so early"
"Yeah, I wish I hadn't" I make a face walking back out the door. Seeing that really messed with my stomach, I got out of there as quick as possible practically gasping for clean air. I'm pretty sure I'm ready to throw up, what the fuck was that?! Why would he be kissing him right there on our couch? Even I wouldn't do something so fucked up!
God, I really wish I hadn't seen that. "Hey" a girls voice calls out as I'm walking trying to calm this gut-wrenching feeling I'm having. Turning I see Bevin walking closer with a smile "you're out late"
"Oh um just walking" I continue to walk and she joins me "So what's new?" She asks
"Nothing, you?"
"Yeah same, classes just kicking my ass the regular" "Sorry about that"
I'm so uninterested in what she's saying and I think she could tell "you ok? You seem a little pale"
"I'm fine" as I'm walking my phone vibrates in my pocket, taking it out I see Nash's name and I immediately ignore the call
"So if you're not busy wanna come over to my place and hang? I got drinks" Nash has got me so fucked in the head with this ugh! I mean it's not like I didn't know what he did with those guys but it's one thing to think about it then to see it, and thinking about it was already too much for me "Forrest?"
"Huh?" I completely forget Bevin was even there "My house for drinks?"
"Uh nah, I'm good" I blow her off "I'll see you around" turning the other direction I walk away from her.
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Do you know how hard it is to avoid someone you live with? Dodging Nash has been difficult the last 2 d